Inside Bell's Brain

I’m sharing this post here.  These were my thoughts I shared via Facebook when our governor announced we would not be returning to school this year. The first picture below I took as I walked out of my classroom on that last day at dismissal... I just had this eerie feeling that’s what would happen. The second image is one I saw just this week & borrowed from another ESL teacher online, and I found it particularly fitting for the complex emotions I’ve experienced in this quarantine.  This certainly hasn’t been my year. More ongoing health problems than I’ve ever imagined possible for one person. Moving addresses... twice technically. Adjusting to a new role as a wife. Trying to stay afloat. Changes to my body and personality I didn’t understand. Constantly feeling like a disappointment to those around me because I just haven’t been at the caliber I’ve always demanded of myself. Unable to remember the small things, things I had always been able to juggle in my ever-act...

It seems like it's been forever since I've written on this blog, though I haven't technically stopped writing.  Wow... where do I even begin?  So much has changed since that last blog post in January 2019.  Since then, I've suffered an ongoing major mental health crisis, gotten engaged, gotten married, continued to battle mental health issues, experienced the most challenging year of my professional career, moved twice (technically), and now here we are in the middle of a quarantine because of a global health pandemic.  This is really not where I would have seen myself in 2020 when I wrote that last post.  So now seems like as good a time as any for fresh starts.  I have a new name.  So maybe it's time for a new blog name.  My interests and passions have changed... so maybe it's time the format of this blog changed.  I'm not sure, exactly.  I find myself building the plane as I fly most days, but I think for now I will keep adding t...